"Let justice and praise become my embrace To love You from the inside out": October 2008

life has been kinda different since i started kings... good ways and bad. ill start with the bad :)

So in a way i feel that since a started kings it has kinda torn me a way from God a little bit.. AND IT IS NOT BECAUSE OF MY FRIENDS. i choose to do what i do....you guys all know that I AM A DRAMA QUEEN i know... :) and so i can make things a lot more than they need to be and that just makes things worse when something doesnt have to be such a big deal, and then here i come! making it ten times worse... i also have not been spending time reading my bible. which even though i left mine in my friends grandmas car :), its not like we dont have more bibles.... i am the worst of sinners... but i am saved by the grace of God.. The Lord is so good. I always want to be apart of all the drama at school but even though i want to, i shouldn't. i get upset when i dont get what i want, which shouldnt be the case, i should be grateful for what i have

the good part- I love all my friends there... and i love ALL of my friends anywhere :) Just a little while ago i went to my friends house to have a sleep over. And this is just one of the ways God worked in my life as i was there.
I met a girl named Maddie . i found out that her mom has cancer. and of course i started crying, all my friends comforted me. and when ever im upset, my friends comfort me. not just at school, but anywhere. I was able to share with Maddie (actually i dont think i told her that my mom died but she figured it out) my struggles and what it feels like, because of course she could relate. Im so grateful for maddie that she is now my friend and that i know that if i ever have any trouble i can always look to her as an example, also my friend Erica, who also lost her mom from cancer. God puts the people in my life to help me along the way.

God has blessed me so much with such good friends. HE IS SO GOOD! im not perfect. as hard as a try, it will never work. God has blessed me so much. i dont always think about it, but he has. and, my teachers are wonderful!!! i love them :)

here are the lyrics to a song that i really like and i think that when you listen to the music also it makes it better, but the lyrics are the most important part :)

Thank you for the cross, Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love, Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious

High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
The Darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb